4 Dec 2014

shape, form and feelings

Many women suffer from their body image. Most women are unhappy about some or many parts or the whole body. The sad thing is they suffer from being themselves…. Do they?

I have never dared to admit that I struggle with the image of my body, I always tell everyone I am fine with it. Yes, I do not mind to walk naked in front of others, I put on a brave face and look into the world as if I am proud of how I look? But have I ever accepted my sensuality? Have I ever accepted my sexuality? Have I ever really looked at myself and think that what some say negatively to me might not be fair? And those who say they think I am beautiful, attractive and/or sensual actually seeing and enjoying?

When I was young and actually slim…for some perhaps skinny a fellow worker who liked curvy women told me I looked like a 'boned-cunt'. I laughed and walked away, but it didn't leave my mind. We do get an enormous amount of negative remarks thrown at us as women year after year. And not only by men but also women can judge one another with great venom. We come in so many forms and shapes and we have been given so many images in the media on what 'perfect' might be.

Women are constantly judged on how they look and somehow it has internalized so much that we are constantly judging ourselves negatively. We have been shaped not by our own image, but by the images that are constantly telling us what the ideal image is. I know and it is fair that I need to break down the image I have of me. I want to be happy, sexy and loving towards my own body.

So being slim and tall, having long legs didn't make me feel good and now that I have gained some weight I still think it is not good enough. So I have been n a crusade to feel happy, to enjoy myself! And I have been on a crusade to look at others and not judging but looking at them and see the beauty. Or what I have done and which is even worse, I looked at others thinking they were far better, prettier, more intelligent, better dressed… whatever and by that making myself very, very wrong! I am still on this crusade that everyone is in essence ok. Criticizing unfairly is not helping at all. There is however a good thing in getting older, I get more anymore in peace with my body image.  I start to love me more and more. What you see is what you get? And what I see is what I get.

Is love seeing beauty or adoring imperfections…. No love is enjoying the whole package that you are. Here is project I really like… enjoy! Do click the link below.

I am what's underneath

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