27 Feb 2015

Made in Heaven

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder…
Jeff Koons is a world wide well known artist. In most popular modern art musea they have work of Jeff Koons in their collection. He is what we call a well established artist and recently an object was sold for 21 million dollars at an auction. In 1989 he started off with a pornographic serie titled: 'Made in Heaven'. 

Koons has a studio with young artists working for him, there he designs and produces his Art. He is like a designer blowing up reality and putting it right in your face. He is a modern days pop art artist as was for example Claes Oldenburg , who enlarged everyday objects into huge sculptures. I used one of his works in a post about clothespins, you can find here.  Work where the mind plays tricks with the changing of perspective of either large and small 'Gulliver's Travels', Alice in Wonderland. It also changes the perspective of ourselves feeling narcissistically large or vulnerably small.
How we look at the world is influenced by how we have been raised. And that is also on how we view ourselves and how we want to break with it or not. Jeff Koons challenges our perspective within his perception of the beauty of banality. Because his art is truly a luxurious, precisely made, out of the box version of kitsch and inflatables.

Made in Heaven

The exhibitionistic exhibition 'Made in Heaven' started in a gallery in Antwerp, Belgium. But it was set off by a billboard Koons was commissioned to make for the Whitney Museum of American Art in NewYork. Koons actively sought contact with pornstar/politician Ilona Staller (Cicciolina) and used this as an inspiration to make huge billboards about his idea about media. The billboards and art of other artists were used in the 'Image World' exhibition in 1989.  The intention of the exhibition was to show how we are surrounded by imagery 24 hours, we can see and watch almost everything, almost everywhere at any time.
If we look at it now more than 25 years after, we can indeed immediately open any imagery, everywhere at any time. We can research on how to do some knit work, repairing an engine or cooking a meal, which is great. On the other hand we can also view how to make a bomb, to the variety of kama sutra sex positions, to actually seeing someone killed and porn is all over the place and we have to protect our children from early exposure to these images.

Self Reflection

Koons, in his own words, chose to do "Made in Heaven' as a self reflective serie of art. Why self reflective and why should I even be confronted with it? Koons was already a star artist with a big studio when he found pornstar and politician Ilona Staller to work with him. This resulted in a marriage in 1991 In the short period the two of them were married 'Made in Heaven' came to full bloom.
The period, although it ended sadly, was I think a sexual exploration within accepting his own sexuality. She has no shame about her body and why should she? Koons made the whole series with her: truly pornographic art. What I found intriguing and that was mostly with the statues that I could walk around it, watch every detail. But by walking around it I also became part of the intimacy, I have become the camera(wo)man that tapes the scene. But do I experience intimacy? In a museum things aren't private, so people put up their best behavior. We might put on a brave face, or a giggly face, an austere face, but I bet none would have shown an obvious aroused face. I wonder?

Art is in the Eye of the Beholder

Shame and sexuality are unfortunately often close friends. But here Jeff Koons went past his own shame and actually visiting the exhibition the visitor could hide behind a veil of looking at art and in a sense they could shamelessly look at porn. It was properly institutionalized. When I take the context away the art changes again in porn. However a lot of art was made to arouse, tittellate.
For a lot of people within the BDSM world entering into the lifestyle is letting go of many of the perceptions we have on 'self'. We have to research, contemplate and let go of perceptions, ideologies and ideas we have been raised with. Accepting body, sexuality, intimacy is not something that comes overnight. Posting a picture can be liberating, celebrating or informative. But most of all it should be your choice. 
So is it Koons narcissistic or vulnerable self depicted here or perhaps both?

We’ll still allow nudity if the content offers a substantial public benefit, for example in artistic, educational, documentary, or scientific contexts.

The above is simply an impossible task to judge, but I am glad google stopped and we can go on blogging as we wish.

25 Feb 2015

Adult content policy on Blogger

content?… I really wonder….I am not content at all!

Adult content policy on Blogger

Starting March 23, 2015, you won't be able to publicly share images and video that are sexually explicit or show graphic nudity on Blogger.
Note: We’ll still allow nudity if the content offers a substantial public benefit, for example in artistic, educational, documentary, or scientific contexts.

Changes you’ll see to your existing blogs

If your existing blog doesn’t have any sexually explicit or graphic nude images or video on it, you won’t notice any changes.
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Effect on new blogs

For any blogs created after March 23, 2015, we may remove the blog or take other action if it includes content that is sexually explicit or shows graphic nudity as explained in our content policy.

So, I think I mainly blog for artistic, educational, documentary context. I agree, I do not post any scientific context. But for now, I think this is a very narrow minded view on society.
There is a lovely community of people sharing their experiences, knowledge and artistic writings here.

This most likely will mean that I have to shut down my blogs.

23 Feb 2015


For years I would look in the mirror
Did I see myself? Did I really look?
Did I ever enjoy what I saw?
Now that I am older, I have finally opened my eyes.

For years I looked in the mirror.
And saw what I thought I was, how I was.
I never realized I was not really looking.
Now that I am older, I opened my eyes.

I looked in the mirror and saw myself.
Wearing a pencil dress, showing my curves.
I realized and enjoyed every curve.
Trailing my hips with my hands, my waist.

Over 50, feeling so darn attractive.
Catching my breath as I do, tracing my curves.
I never understood what my father saw
looking at my Mum, now I do

19 Feb 2015

My first Munch

A low-pressure, social gathering at a restaurant or pub for people into BDSM. Particularly intended for people new to the scene who might be intimidated by a play party.

To chew or eat (something) especially in a noisy way

So for years I have been chewing on going to a Munch or any social gathering to meet just people in general within the BDSM world. Being engaged in second life and being with a few Dominants in RL didn't make me brave at all. I found that place hidden in the darkness ever so comfortable. While I didn't have a problem meeting people within the community, my problem was much more being exposed to the outside world. What if I would be recognized? What if other people would know my distorted view?

I visited once the Fetish Cafe in Antwerp and daring as I was I didn't want to go into the dungeon. I sat their legs tightly together and within the protection of a caring Dominant. This has been going on for years, until as I do at times I grabbed myself and decided it was time to understand and learn. To see how it is to actually go to a Munch. And of course… being me… I went on my own.

I had no idea what to wear? Something black I decided, should I wear heels? I was rummaging through my closet and decided to go safe. Black, high heels, black tights, not to put the focus on me to much. So I drove to Amsterdam, parked the car and walked to the bar-restaurant. As I walked closer and closer I felt how my heart was pounding and how nervous I was. Thoughts racing through my mind of what I was about to expect. I really didn't know anyone present. And in al honesty, I hate to mingle, I hate small talk and even though I got better at it and learned over the years I still feel anxiety. But who doesn't? That's what I thought while I was walking. Many have done this before me, most likely with the same anxiety.

So I took a deep breath and walked through the door not knowing what to expect. Fortunately close to the entrance was the man who organizes the Munch and I walked over to him and plainly told him who I was and that I was new and nervous. I had contacted him about a year and a half ago, but I wasn't brave enough at the time. We talked for a little bit. He was very nice and offered me a glass of wine and introduced me to the couple he was talking to. That calmed me. She was a lovely bubbly sub with her Dominant husband, both easy to be with and it made me feel welcome.
The shy feeling stayed with me, but I know that most will think I wasn't.

As ever afterwards I started to overthink and usually I judge myself in a negative way, being far to critical. So what can I do to overcome this? I just have to go again! So I will.

And…they are nice.. they didn't bite, I laughed a lot!

You can go with the flow but Jay Wiseman wrote about what to expect at a Munch which you can read here!

14 Feb 2015

50 shades of grey, the movie

Last night I found myself in the movie theater with a good friend to watch the movie '50 shades of grey'. Although I had some expectation I would have a good time, most and for all because of the company I was in, I wasn't expecting I would enjoy the movie as much as I did.

I know I have been brutally negative about the book in a few posts I made for this blog. After reading the first book I had no intention to read the other 2 books of the trilogy. However after watching the movie I will at least give the second movie a chance. Why?

The movie starts of like the book where Anastasia Steel fills in for her roommate to conduct an interview with the young wealthy entrepreneur Christian Grey, and like Elizabeth in Pride and Prejudice when she arrives at his Mansion c.q. office building, she looks up at the high rise and is impressed. Arriving at his office she is welcomed by a number of tall blond girls, dressed in grey tight fitting suits and high heels. I was expecting James Bond peeking up around the corner, gun ready to save Miss Steele from the sadistic nature of the evil '50 grades of fucked up' Mister Grey. It didn't happen, but to me and my companion's joy we could hardly stop laughing and to our astonishment, our laughter must have been contagious, a roar of laughter started to fill the theater.

It wasn't the only time we laughed, it turns out the movie is more of a comedy for all the wrong reasons. It shows the absurdity of the book even more clearly. The dialogues already ridiculous in the book can't be made into something more substantial. The best thing is that the inner voice of Miss Steele is left out. I have to say that Dakota Johnson is playing her part and makes at a least Miss Steel into a somewhat plausible character. However Jamie Dornan is not very convincing as Mister Grey. He is an attractive man, looking like a very well trained jock with all the bits and pieces at the right place, although I haven't seen all bits and pieces. To see him as the stern austere character is a bit more problematic, he just is a nice guy.

The scenes were artfully filmed soft-porn, the sex-scenes weren't that much different to most scenes in movies. They were ok I was happy that the end, actually meant to be the cliffhanger for part 2, made the audience roar with laughter once again. Honestly there needn't be a parody made, the movie is simply hilarious!

3 Feb 2015


Oh lala….. Stockings………

Don't You love them?
to see them 
wear them
feel them
enjoy them!

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